When I found out I was pregnant I was over the moon and when I found out I was having a boy made me feel even prouder..

We agreed to name him Brandon and Christopher was after my brother who we sadly lost in 1993.

When I was in my record trimester at 21 weeks I was laying on bed and my waters broke and started having blood clots. I then started thinking something wasn't right so my other half at the time got my mum and was rushed to hospital to be checked over. They scanned me and got a consultant to come and they confirmed that my baby had died!

I was so heartbroken being that he was my firstborn son. I was checked on hourly and given tablets to bring on labour.

I then gave birth to my sleeping angel on the 9th April 2007. I let everyone else hold him first then I held him. He was the most gorgeous little boy I'd ever seen. He was just growing his eyebrows and you could tell he was going to have brown hair.

He now has 2 brothers that know about him and always say hello and goodnight to him...

I would give everything to have him here even if it was for a day so his brothers would have got to meet him. I'm so heartbroken that I will miss all the milestones but I know he is in a better place. And when it is my time, I will be reunited with him. I just hope he recognises me as his mummy.