I sit here on a Saturday night wondering 'Why am I not a Mummy'.

The teardrops still fall, our hearts remain sad.

Thinking of Kieryn, our wonderful lad.

A beautiful child, so perfect and new,

We found out we were pregnant in December 2005, we weren't trying for a baby, so it was a shock. My GP confirmed my pregnancy and was elated, as he has been my G.P since I was young.

To Max

If only you could have opened your tiny eyes,

If only we hadn't had to say our Goodbyes,

If only you were with us, here, now,

If only, if only. We miss you, how.

Little star shining bright

up among the moon so

bright

there you will stay so high

and so bright shining

down your wondrous 

light. 

Tonight I saw an angel

The tiniest angel of all

My baby angel is peaceful

He doesn’t want to cry

His heart is beating slowly

Translucent skin and eyes

My girls were born three months early due to twin to twin transfusion syndrome and were both taken within a month, here is their story: 

The circle closes - at last

Goodnight baby Callum, it's time to sleep

We've got your handprints and memories to keep.

Our daughter Amelia was stillborn on 25th March 2006 at 39weeks.

I am a 34 year old married woman with a 2 year old son.  On 4th April this year at 1.25am I was 40 weeks and 5 days pregnant when our beautiful baby daughter, Xanthe, was stillborn.

I had suffered health problems including Rheumatoid Arthritis since I was 26.

On 4th June 2005, our first child, a much wanted son Owen, was born silently into our lives. His tiny heart had stopped beating some 36 hours previously. We were 41 weeks pregnant. 

I became pregnant at 18 and in no way did I think anything could go wrong. I thought that I was invincible.