On the 20th December 2018 I went for my 20 week scan happy to see my princess again after many miscarriages.

I already had a daughter so when I found out I was pregnant with my second child I could not have been happier our family was to be complete.

I became pregnant with my first born on Boxing Day 2016.

On the 5th of September 2018 we was told that are baby had alobar holoprosencephaly and would have no chance of survival if born full term so we had to have baby put to sleep at 25 week

Rachel was our third child. Our first was born at 34 weeks by emergency C-Section because of foetal distressed caused by APH and he spent the first 3 weeks of his life in NICU.

The day I found out I was pregnant is always going to be one to be remembered. It was 19th February and my mum had been over for the weekend.

The loss of both my babies happened over 30 years ago and the reason I want to share this now, is that I didn't receive any bereavement care/counselling at all, and sometimes wonder how