Starting when I found out I became pregnant, I was over the moon I couldn't wait to tell My partner, my mum and my friends!

My story starts in 1975, all through my pregnancy I was having problems, my baby was due in June.

Our Maggie Jo was born still Wednesday 24th October 2018 2:56 am, weighing 1.7lb one day before 28 weeks.

Our son James was stillborn on Sept 8th 2018, a light had gone out in our life, thanks to the help of Sands and our loved ones we got support in what was the worst time of our lives.

I was 39 weeks when my waters broke.

I was sent home and told to come back when contractions were getting bad.

After years of fertility treatment and associated heartache falling pregnant with our first son, we had just started the process again when I discovered that I was pregnant.

Admittedly I'd left it to have children at 38, but when I fell pregnant with Eleanor I was so excited and happy.

Tom and I couldn’t have been more excited when we found out we were expecting Evelyn.

It was bang on 6 weeks I started being sick, I tried so hard to avoid it but I couldnt, it went on throughout my entire pregnancy.

How can you apologise to someone who never really existed

Only seventeen and a half weeks of life that legally doesn’t count

On the 21 April 2013 my life stopped

I was told by GOSH my baby had died.

In 2016 I gave birth to a beautiful girl with Holoprosencephaly

I was told at 6 months to terminate her but I kept going

I will never forget the joy my husband and I felt when we were told that were having twins.

I was 33 weeks pregnant picking my children up from school when I had the most awful contractions, which then turned into bleeding/clots.

I don't know where to start, other than to say this was my second pregnancy.